I really miss you today.
I loved you before I ever touched you.
i cant sleep.
so im burning candles and sage and saying stupid shit out loud just to make sure…. im half drunk and kinda stoned, watching the birdcage, shoving dry lucky charms in my face and i really dont like being alone right now. my bed is up against the same bedroom wall as my neighbors bedroom wall, where she has been laying dead and rotting for over a week. i havent been home much in the past 3 weeks to notice the smell. but now that im home, im having a really hard time with it. my other neighbor and i closed the windows on the apartment next door and since then, you cant smell it on the breeze, but im seriously so fucking afraid its going to cause the smell to seep into my apartment thru the walls…. i know i probly seem like im complaining about this a lot, but seriously you guys, smelling a dead person was one of the last things i ever wanted to smell, all day long i could smell it, like its burned into my sinuses. burned into my memories… my neighbors and i finally got ahold of the apartment manager tonight, he said they are going to start cleaning it out tomorrow, which means its going to smell even worse until that carpet in there gets ripped out completely. after seeing 5 grown men so fucked up over seeing that mess, really means what they saw is bad in there, ugh. this is one of the most interesting things ive ever experienced. i just wish it didnt smell like death…
Anonymous asked: what do you do for living?
your mom 👌
there’s nothing like coming home to the smell of your next door neighbor rotting dead in her apartment for god only knows how long…